Spelunking the Universe
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I.W.A.S. – Deki Stargazer
Nov 16th
Waz: Hi. Welcome to an Interview with a Scionian. The goal with these interviews will be to help flesh out the inhabitants of the IoS universe. Our first guest in this series is none other than Deki Stargazer. Welcome Deki.
Deki: Thank you Waz! I’m very flattered that you decided to pick me for the first interview. So many people to choose from and you go and choose little ole me.
Waz: Don’t be silly. You are the protagonist of the first book, you are the natural choice for the first interview. A milestone if you will, so shall we begin?
Deki: Of course. Ask away.
Waz: What would you say is the most remarkable thing about you?
Deki: Wow. That’s a tough question. I’m often told that being a blue orc is pretty remarkable. People gawk at me and whisper about me. It’s enough to make you insecure. I also can’t remember anything from my life before the Alten incident.
Waz: Do you have any formal training in combat or arts?
Deki: Not really no. I have gotten better at fighting lately but it has hardly been formal training. Unless you count highwaymen trying to rob you as formal.
[Deki and Waz Laugh]
Waz: No I can’t say that I can.
Deki: As for arts, I have recently gotten interested in writing a diary. I don’t think that counts either but it has helped me.
Waz: You say it helped you. Are you referring to your amnesia?
Deki: Yes. I haven’t been able to pinpoint the cause, it is hard. Sometimes I can feel my own memories melting away.
Waz: That’s pretty intense. Has there been any further loss of memories since Alten?
Deki: That’s the unfortunate thing here. I don’t know. I’d imagine so as I have some holes in what happened. Whenever I feel these memory holes I assume that I’ve lost something forever.
Waz: Not to change subjects but we are limited on time. How would you describe your personality?
Deki: Insecure maybe. But certainly caring, I don’t want to see anyone innocent hurting. I get uncomfortable in serious situations. I like to use comedy to help ease any situation like that. Then again I’m not all that funny so it only seems to help me most times. If I were to describe myself in a short alliteration I’d say something like “Nice, Neurotic and Nerdy.”
Waz: What food do you like best? If it isn’t a single food then perhaps a food type.
Deki: I’m a big fan of anything spicy. Spicy and really warm foods, I like the feeling in my tummy.
[Waz flips through interview notes]
Waz: Have you ever been in a war before?
Deki: Objectively I want to say no. But subjectively I feel like that would be a lie. I’m sure being blue I’d stand out like a firefly at midnight, I’d surely get wounded or worse. War scares me to death.
Waz: How do you feel about death? Not necessarily in yourself but witnessing it.
Deki: I fall apart. I’m not good in those sort of situations. The adrenaline is nice but otherwise it is a terrible experience.
Waz: You say “I fall” and not any form of hypothetical, are you eluding that you may have already been involved in this sort of incident?
Deki: Is there anything else you want to ask me? I am also on a short time frame.
Waz: Well by all means we could reschedule for a second interview at a later date? Would that be best for you.
Deki: Yes. I think I would really prefer that. It was a pleasure Waz.
of Dreaming
Mar 13th
I dream
of dreaming
sleeping
Seeing
feeling fantasy
overtake me
I dream
of resting
watching worlds
whose beauty
best me
So why now
do I find
my wake
taking hold
of me
I dream
of dreaming
of 8 hours
of ivory towers
of frailty
turned to majesty
oh how I miss
utter bliss
of dreaming
How do I write?
Mar 11th
In one of the infinitely many universes someone has queried me and asked how I write what I write and what my strategy for discussion and thought is. I am very much a present writer, technicalities aside (like the nanoseconds between events and our actual sensing) I write things and experience my writing in much the same way that readers experience it. I really don’t know what is going to come next most of the time and I just go with the flow.
Ever since I was young(er), to be more accurate 7 years ago, I have written poetry and fiction in almost the exact same fashion. I sit down and I write whatever comes to mind, I watch it unfold and I enjoy it as an experience even though I am the one providing that experience. For many years I’ve been interested in Psychology for no larger a reason than to just understand myself, it has slowly grown from that to trying to understand everything however without an understanding of the self I don’t feel it is fair to assume one can understand anything or anyone else.
At any rate I write something once, I may read it once again after I write it, but I rarely-if ever-fix any mistakes in my writing. I’m more lenient in this system with fictional stories as typos can screw the entire meaning of something up and create pretty large problems for further chapters however in poetry I almost never look back. Once it is written it is complete, and it’s been something that I’ve always been pleased with. I think it adds a level of authenticity to my work, it helps show it as something that even I won’t ever fully understand, which in the case of a few poems is entirely true. I look back on them and I’m just in awe that I wrote them, not necessarily because of some sort of amazing quality, but because I can honestly not remember what I meant by them. I have a newfound interest in them and it makes me happy. I hate habituation and my writing style seems to help me avoid it to a pretty substantial degree.
So for anyone who ever reads my fictional works or my poetry, keep in mind that you are seeing it likely from the same side of the table as I am. I don’t know if that adds or detracts from anything in the works but I hope it does give it another dimension that it didn’t formerly have. Many times the analytical me is trying to understand what the creative me is doing and its a very disturbing disconnect at times. If that makes no sense imagine watching yourself writing something and in no edge of your current conscious self do you see any blueprints laid out for what you are watching unfold in front of you.
I hope this was at least enjoyable for some folks, it just seemed like it needed to be said, if nothing else so that I could read it later.